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Discussion in 'Social Discussion' started by Eetha, Jan 12, 2016.

  1. Jaded

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    The real themildone

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    * Jaded sighs

    I was feeling a lot better about this before I thought about it too much. What's even the point.

    edit: this is the rest of my life isn't it?
    edit2: retail or call centers. That's the rest of my life. And call centers is only if I move.
     
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    #1801 Jaded, Sep 28, 2018
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  2. esprit-hyperdoux

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    i return your kindness with [appropriate gesture of empathy]
     
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    data sanitation engineer

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    Take it from a woman older than you who has capital R Regrets:

    There are things in life you want to do. It is not enough to just think or talk about what it is you want to do with your life and who you want to be. You have to live it. You have to focus on those dreams at the expense of many other things, and not let anything hold you back. *Every* day has to be about those goals. And if you do that, if you try to do what you want to do with your life and fail, you will ALWAYS have the rest of your life to look back and see that you tried. But if you don't try, if you don't at least try to push your present forward to the future you want, you will instead look back and see what if. Year after year, a giant what if. You do not want that. It's waaaaaay worse than a phone job. Way worse than retail. The passage of time is unforgiving and unrelenting.
     
  4. themildone

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    I just went from hysterically laughing so hard I was wheezing to almost crying in a 3 minute span. I've been exhausted almost constantly but as soon as I lay down to sleep my mind starts racing. I've been fidgeting like crazy, which is super unusual for me. I'm pretty sure I'm about to have a manic episode in the nearish future, which is weird because I've only been able to tell I was going to before it happened one other time so it's just...I dunno, a weird feeling. Not sure what I can do to stop it, if anything. Idk. Bipolar fucking sucks.
     
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  5. Jaded

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    Thank you. I got caught up in my own nonsense and spiraled a little bit and this helped jump out of that.
     
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    wut?

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    i mean, what do you want to do? there's always a path to something, even if it's hard.
     
  7. minkyboodle

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    "And there you have it"

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    Nothing to see here. Carry on.
     
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    #1807 minkyboodle, Oct 2, 2018
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  8. Jaded

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    I dont want to like this but wanted you to know it was read and I'm sorry.

    :hug:
     
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    #1808 Jaded, Oct 2, 2018
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    Sincere internet hugs to you @minkyboodle@minkyboodle :hug:, I'm usually up late if you ever want to talk.

    I almost posted here earlier today, my 18yo old man cat is really sick and idk how long he's got. The vet started him on antibiotics but his sodium levels are through the roof, to the point where I was instructed to shoot extra water in his mouth several times a day via syringe. Vet was hopeful but realistic. I am stress eating food that is bad for me (kielbasas) and I'm not going to feel guilty about that, dammit.
     
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  10. minkyboodle

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    Thank you both. I realized I wasn't sure if I wanted it to be read, hence my edit. I just lost my shit because too many things built up. I called my friend who is like a sister to me, and she let me rage/cry it out and made me feel (mostly) better. My brain is still bees over most of it, but I have walked back the suicidal ideations. If anyone else reads that, know it is Anxiety saying those things (though the bitch used my voice/typing) and she's a liar and it does get better. I don't know when, and sometimes it seems like it's just for a minute before the next calamity, but it does. I've gotten this far since I paused my therapy in August, and I will do everything I can to make it to November, when I will finally have insurance. (My therapist went private practice, so yeah..walking a tightrope without a net at the moment.) Anyhoo, thank you for allowing me a space to unleash my crazy, I guess. (What? Not sure what to say when embarrassed by how dark/deep that original post went.) Yep and stuff..

    @jklmnop@jklmnop I am so sorry about your furbaby's ailing health. That is heartbreaking and devastating to go through, even when you know it's coming. Don't feel guilty about doing what you need to help yourself get through it. Kielbasas are better than meth, I always say. Okay, that's awful and I don't say that, but awkward humor is my handle when things are horrible, so bad jokes come pouring out. My point is, take care of you in the way you need to get through this. And love on/spoil your furdude as much as you can. I know the pain of losing an animal, and knowing I had those extra moments of love with Madame Squigglesworth in her last days helped it hurt a tiny bit less.
     
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    #1811 mboone73, Oct 2, 2018
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    my ex shared this on facebook and I want to punch him in the face. what fucking sacrifice? he's seen him less than 10 hours in a year and a half and has contributed exactly 27 diapers.
    [​IMG]
     
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    #1812 themildone, Oct 3, 2018
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    We love you Minky. You keep on fighting and know you have people here that will always adore you.
     
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    wut?

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    I edited it out of my quote for you.

    <3 :hug:
     
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    I doubt anyone will notice or care, but I'm struggling really hard. Those "what ifs" @jklmnop@jklmnop mentioned? They're serious business, and they never give my mind rest.

    I'm tired of being sick, of not having energy, and I'm so, so tired of being sad.

    I have no friends, and very little family. My kids are my life, but I'm terrified I won't be here to see Mia grow up if my kidney/blood pressure keep getting worse.

    Life has been hell for the last few weeks. I'm just kinda sludging through.
     
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    Totally care. I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. Hope things begin to look up for you guys.
     
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    I'm sorry :( I don't have anything constructive to add but :hug:
     
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