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Discussion in 'Social Discussion' started by Eetha, Jan 12, 2016.

  1. ducky

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    planned obsolescence

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    pretty sure i've posted this before, but...
    i care *way too much* about people who don't even give an ounce of a fuck about me. so much wasted energy and thoughts.
     
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  2. humbleturker

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    We love you great panda. <3
     
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  3. RainbowInTheDark

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    Ugh I got fired today.

    I had a pretty nice office job and would do a bit of turk on my lunch breaks and I fucked it up in the past few months.

    Stress, depression, lack of sleep from having a toddler lead me to argue with my managers yesterday and I got let go today.

    I wonder if I can make it supporting me and my daughter with just turking.
     
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    Francis Manancis ...fuck you...

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    Definitely file for unemployment ASAP.
    Then decide if you want another job.
    Having a toddler myself and flexible job hours has been awesome.
    Maybe look for something part time like 20 hours a week and turk another 20++hours a week. Why not both might work for you.
    Getting a little extra sleep and taking a job that’s only 3 days a week or later in the day might work out well. If you can get unemployment for a little while try and see if full time turking works for you.
    Stuff happens, don’t worry about the old job.
    There are plenty of opportunities.
    If you want any help searching for anything let me know :)
    Side note: If you think you can tutor math or science. Make some flyers and post them in your neighborhood and at the local elementary school. Charging 40$ per student per hour is really really nice extra income. All you need is a few kids.
    Yes kids have summer school.
    Put up flyers to babysit in the neighborhood for Friday and Saturday nights. You will get booked up.
    Just some suggestions. Let us know how things go! :) :) :)
     
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    saw my therapist yesterday. She thinks that the extreme anxiety and whatever happened wednesday (when I was posting about taking shots of jager) was a manic episode. Which is scary, because that means it lasted 6 days. And also scary because it's my first full-blown manic episode in a long time. And even when I am manic I can usually recognize that I am, even if I can't stop it, and I didn't even realize I was. I hate this. I hate not having control, and I hate knowing that this shit will never, ever stop and could happen at any time. I fucking hate bipolar.
     
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    I'm depressed. it's messing with my quality of work and focus. i hate my job, but i need it. i wouldn't get fired, but I can disappoint people and eventually maybe get fired and have everyone hate me.

    *hides*
     
  7. Maria Tortilla

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    Tanked up loser in a helicopter

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    I haven't had any alcohol since Saturday and have been eating pretty good all week and I've felt better than I've felt in a while. Wish I could do this every week but of course stuff (mostly husband) happens and I go back to drinking every other day. Sigh.

    Edit: I guess I should have specified. It's really hard to stay sober when you have a husband who insists on getting sloshed 4-5 days out of the week.
     
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    High five! I haven't had a drink since Sunday and have been eating really well! :) I'm trying to get on the no drinking Monday-thursday and no eating out sunday-thursday train.

    Week one success. Hopefully more to follow.
     
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  9. ducky

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    planned obsolescence

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    Wanna spread a lil positivity this morning..
    I'm feeling totally grateful for some of the great people I've met on this site that I can call friends. This shitty journey is a lot easier when you have people backing you up and that care about you. I'm also grateful for some opportunities that have come up recently, and grateful that my meds have been really helping me out the last few months. I wish I had done this sooner, but medicine seriously makes me paranoid with the potential side effects, and the fear of being dependent on them. I've been trying to make a lot of changes recently and I hope I can keep them up. It certainly feels easier than it use to.
     
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    planned obsolescence

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    Completely unrelated to my last post..
    Bisexuality is valid.
     
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    the real Jaded

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    when I accidentally start showing my mental instability outside of the sad pandas thread (and derail the daily thread in the process)
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    on the bright side...I think the gabapentin might be working. Haven't had a full-blown panic attack in a few days. Anxiety isn't completely gone, but I don't think it ever will be.
     
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    the real Jaded

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    I just found out that my best friend in middle school (and my ex girlfriend) died yesterday. She had epilepsy and something just...went wrong during a seizure. She died instantly. She had moved to Florida when we were in 8th grade, and we did the long-distance thing for a while, but then we broke up. I feel so, so dumb for being upset about this because we don't even really talk anymore, I mean, we like each other's stuff on facebook and very occasionally comment, but that's it. But...she was such a good person. She was my first real relationship. (yes, I know it was in middle school, but whatever. She was my first everything). This is so fucked up.
     
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  13. Jaded

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    :hug:

    edit: I"m sorry :(
     
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    planned obsolescence

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    There's no reason to feel dumb about that, even if you didn't talk to her as much recently, she clearly meant a lot to you back then and had an impact on your life.
     
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    found the first connection with someone since ex.

    but it won't go anywhere and it would be bad news bears.

    But dancing all night and then having a heart to heart about true love, law of attraction, politics and religion in the parking lot of a bar until 4am is something.
     
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    I started new health meds, and also an upped dosage for my depression meds and I hate this time period every time. I always feel super down, and it feels like all my worries and insecurities attack me at once. Not to mention I've been having terrible dreams lately. I know after a week or two I should feel better again, but it sucks waiting for that point.
     
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    Curiouser and curiouser

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    How am I supposed to get better when my insurance company literally denies everything? So fucking frustrated.
     
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    sorry i've been posting so much. I don't think the gabapentin is working any more. either that or this girl passing away has triggered a lot of stuff. I'm seriously considering checking myself into the hospital but 1) my parents would probably be pissed they have to watch my son, 2) I wouldn't be able to talk to boyfriend, and 3) I don't even know if the hospital would help. Idk I'm just super overwhelmed and I'm constantly panicky and my thoughts are racing and I'm picking at my face and eyebrows again. I'm trying really hard to seem normal in the daily thread but I feel like I'm going nuts.
     
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    Her passing probably has a lot to do with it. When my first boyfriend passed away it threw me off for a while and I hadn't spoken to him in over 10 years, (oddly enough he died the week after I contacted him again. not relevant, sorry.)

    I wish I could offer more help on the rest, but that's all I have experience with. :(
     
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